Packing It All Away

It's less than a month now until I leave...I can't help but feel like I'm really not trying anymore. You know, two weeks ago I was getting everything ready. I was packing, storing, and doing all of the college stuff like paying tuition and registering. But now I'm not really doing anything. I still really want to go still! Don't worry about that. I'm definitely still going. But all of a sudden I feel like I belong here. When life smacks you across the head with something are you just suppose to ignore it? I mean, I've been slapped across the face with life and I can't ignore it.